In the almost twenty years that I've been a spiritual
teacher, I've learned an enormous amount about the nature of the
human soul. Initially, this was not a subject I thought much
about, nor did I have many preconceived beliefs or ideas about
it. In fact, being a teacher of enlightenment, my early emphasis
was on getting people to let go of and transcend any and all
notions of self, including even most of the ideas we have about
our souls. But gradually, I have come to understand and
appreciate that the spiritual path is as much about the
development of the soul as it is about the transcendence of the
ego and conditioned mind. Indeed, these days I often wonder:
Unless we have truly developed our own souls, are we ready or is
it even appropriate for us to take that next step of
transcending the mind? Unless we have developed our souls, will
there be any solid ground from which to leap?
I've come to the conclusion that the most important reason to
do spiritual practice is to develop the soul. A lot of us
naïvely assume that our souls are fully developed, that our
capacity for integrity, authenticity, transparency, conscience,
goodness, and love is already there and just needs to be
realized. But that's simply not true. The soul—which I'm
defining as our capacity for these deeply positive human
qualities—is something that, in most of us, desperately
needs to be developed. Too many of us live in a fractured state,
deeply divided against ourselves—often far more so than we
are aware of or able to feel. We exist in a self-generated
vacuum of moral ambiguity, where everything is relative and our
attention is focused mainly on our emotional state. Most of us
know a lot more about what really matters than we are willing to
live up to. Indeed, we are attracted to that which is beautiful,
profound, and meaningful but find ourselves lacking the soul
strength to really struggle, to engage in a life-and-death
wrestling match with our own division, cynicism, and inertia.
The awful truth is that it is just easier for us not to care
that much. In order to care that much, we have to be
willing to feel a connection with life that is so deep
that it hurts. We have to be ready to step onto the field of our
own experience in a way that is authentic, unconditional, and
deeply committed—to embrace a kind of fearless
vulnerability where our transparency is our strength and the
living experience of connection is permanent, unbroken, and
inescapable.
The life-embracing capacity of the highly developed soul
comes directly from the transformative spiritual experience of
oneness, wholeness, and completeness. When the self has directly
seen that its own deepest depths are absolutely full to
overflowing, all existential doubt is extinguished and we are
freed to embrace the life process without reservation. But even
then, our conviction and our surrender will be tested, again and
again and again. How much love do we have in our hearts, even
when we are being challenged? How strong is our integrity, even
at those times when it seems that the whole universe is
conspiring to tempt us to compromise? How alone are we willing
to stand in what we know to be true? Soul strength is spiritual
strength. It is the ultimate source of dignity and self-respect.
And it is exactly this position of unwavering conviction that we
so desperately need to cultivate if we're going to change the
very fabric of the emotional, psychological, philosophical, and
spiritual field that we all share.
Nobody can do this for us. Others can lead by example, but we
alone must develop our own souls. Interestingly, the aspiration
to cultivate our capacity for integrity, authenticity,
transparency, and conscience comes from the soul itself, the
very part of ourselves that is crying out to be developed. The
instant we surrender to the soul's demand, we will find access
to the oneness, wholeness, and completeness that is the source
of all spiritual strength. But that strength needs to be
cultivated daily, never assumed or taken for granted.
Spiritual practice, undertaken in earnest, gives access to that
source, and that is why it is the ultimate reference point for
the evolving soul in a deeply divided world.
Once we have found this source and have consciously said yes
to the noble task of soul cultivation, there is no turning back.
If, after saying yes, we do allow ourselves to hesitate and fall
prey to the powerful forces of inertia and cynicism, we may not
only lose faith in that source but also lose access to it. That
is why it has been said that it is better never to begin on the
spiritual path than to begin and give up before one has
succeeded unequivocally. Once we have said yes, we must succeed,
because we have seen with our own eyes, felt with our own heart,
and recognized with our own mind what integrity, authenticity,
transparency, and conscience truly are: the only solid ground in
the universe.